The time has come: Roz's leaving party is on tonight in Harrigan's. I'm so sad I have hardly any words to write this. I don't know what I'll do, who I'll go to with problems. I guess skype conversations and emails are a good subsitute, but nothing like the real thing.... God, Darwin is like literally a thousand miles or more from here (I guess?). I know she will use this time to its best effect and I think the distance will do her good. I'll just miss her so much, I'll probably actually grieve.

Tonight I'm going to take as many pictures as my camera will allow, and the scummy thing is I'm leaving early. So I really want to get to talk to her a good bit without crying (which I'll probably do later when no-one's watching).

I have to remind myself I'm not losing her, just her physical presence. Who knows? Maybe after a while she may come back. Right now I think she has to run, has to sort her head and her life out and after that who knows? Darwin may just be the best place to start fresh, or she may feel she needs to come home. Whatever, I support and salute her. I think she's brave, braver than me by far.  She's gotten me through so much bullshit, we're open ears for each other, and that's something everyone needs.

I couldn't be more grateful, or sad... :P